小巧而精美

最近通勤時會聽Spotify的《已按讚歌曲》播放清單，好多歌曲都是以前常聽但好一陣子沒聽了，現在再聽到時還是很驚喜。

Recently, I have been listening to my “Liked Songs" playlist on Spotify during my daily commute, and I have rediscovered many songs that I used to enjoy but hadn’t listened to in a while.

其中一首Céline Dion的〈Have You Ever Been In Love〉讓我心靈震盪了一番。

One particular song, “Have You Ever Been In Love" by Céline Dion, really struck a chord with me.

這是2002年發行的專輯《A New Day Has Come》中的一首歌，這張專輯我國中時愛不釋手，不過以前就只是聽曲，對於歌詞沒有研究，現在33歲的我再聽到這首歌，每句歌詞都讓我極度共鳴。

It was released in 2002 as part of the album “A New Day Has Come," which I loved when I was in junior high school. However, back then, I only listened to the music and didn’t pay much attention to the lyrics. Now, at 33 years old, hearing this song again, every line resonates deeply with me.

Have you ever been in love
You could touch the moonlight
When your heart’s shooting stars
You’re holding heaven in your arms
Have you ever been so in love

Have you ever walked on air
Ever felt like you were dreamin’
When you never thought it could
But it really feels that good
Have you ever been so in love

Have you ever been in love
You could touch the moonlight
When your heart’s shooting stars
You’re holding heaven in your arms
Have you ever been in love, have you

The time I spent
Waiting for something that was heaven-sent
When you find it don’t let go,
I know

Have you ever said a prayer
And found that it was answered
All my hope has been restored
And I ain’t looking anymore
Have you ever been so in love, have you

Some place that you ain’t leavin’
Somewhere you’re gonna stay
When you finally found the meanin’
Have you ever felt this way

The time I spent
Waiting for something that was heaven-sent
When you find it, don’t let go,
I know

‘Cuz have you ever been in love, so in love
You could touch the moonlight
You can even reach the stars
Doesn’t matter near or far
Have you ever been so in love

Have you ever been in love
Have you ever been in love
So in love

2017年至2019年，幾乎每天我都處於不知該如何與人闡述的痛苦之中，黯無天日的時光，跟前任交往的日子。

From 2017 to 2019, almost every day was filled with the pain and despair of not knowing how to express myself to others, all because of the relationship with my ex-partner.

之前也曾寫過幾篇關於前任的文章，在此就不贅述了，總之他帶給我的身心痛苦難與人道，相關細節也只敢跟先生說，但即使說出了，那種烙印在心底的苦楚也只有自己能體會。甚至到現在還有後遺症，前任真是命運的磨練，因為他我才認知到自己原來是個怎麼樣的人——很能忍耐的人。

I have written a few articles about my ex-partner before, so I won’t go into detail here. Suffice it to say that he brought me immense physical and emotional suffering, which only my husband knows the full extent of. Even though I have talked about it, the kind of pain that is etched in my heart can only be understood by myself. Even now, I still suffer from the after-effects of that relationship. My ex-partner was a test of fate, and because of him, I came to realize what kind of person I am – someone who can endure a lot.

雖然兩年多的日子幾乎天天受罵，但我不曾懷疑自己是否就是前任口裡那個糟糕的人，我始終相信甚至越加肯定自己是個很好的人，只是和他不合適，他也不懂得欣賞。

Although I was verbally abused almost every day during those two years, I never doubted that I was the terrible person my ex-partner made me out to be. I always believed, and still do, that I am a good person who just wasn’t compatible with him. He couldn’t appreciate me for who I was.

所以和他分手後我很有自信，定能遇到和自己頻率一樣的人，因為我是值得美好人事物的人，而我也懂得什麼是不適合自己的人。

After breaking up with him, I had a lot of confidence that I would meet someone who shared my values and frequency. I know that I am someone who deserves good people and things in life, and I also know what kind of person is not suitable for me.

熱情／價值觀／金錢觀

Passion/Values/Money Management

我很有意識地以這三點來選擇是否與先生深入交往，而就在和前任分手後一年，2020年3月21日，正式和先生交往了，交往的日子和我的生日只相差3天，讓我很自然地覺得先生是命運送給我的禮物。

I consciously used these three criteria to determine whether to develop a deep relationship with my husband. It was one year after breaking up with my ex-partner, on March 21, 2020, that we officially began dating. Our dating anniversary is only three days away from my birthday, which makes me feel like my husband is a gift from destiny.

前任是越相處越感受到他是個沒有內涵又自負的人，而先生則是越相處越能感受到他的底蘊。

My ex-partner had no substance and was self-important, and the more I got to know him, the more I felt it. My husband, on the other hand, the more time I spend with him, the more I appreciate his depth.

因為感受到這樣的愛，所以我變得吝嗇了，吝嗇給予之外的人關注，我所有的愛與關注都只給予先生和兩隻貓，珍惜善待自己的人，忽略那些不重視自己的人，維持心理衛生，專注在自身。

Because I felt this kind of love, I became stingy with giving attention to anyone other than my husband and two cats. I cherish and treat myself well, ignore those who don’t value me, maintain my mental health, and focus on myself.

因為感受到這樣的愛，結婚的所有儀式我都不在乎，根本不想與無關的人分享我的喜悅，唯一只想和公婆一家拍攝全家福，只是婚後一直沒有契機。前幾天婆婆主動向我說之後等在國外的第二個兒子回台時再一起去拍照，我很感動也很感恩，我終於擁有了一個在乎我的家庭。

Because I felt this kind of love, I didn’t care about the wedding ceremony at all and didn’t want to share my joy with unrelated people. I only wanted to take a family photo with my in-laws, but there was never an opportunity after the wedding. A few days ago, my mother-in-law took the initiative to suggest that we take a photo together when my second brother-in-law who is abroad comes back to Taiwan. I was very moved and grateful. Finally, I have a family that cares about me.

以前受的苦和委屈反而讓我更感激這一切。

The pain and grievances I suffered in the past made me even more grateful for all of this.

今年生日收到幾位好友的祝福，收到先生、同事及朋友的禮物，黑貓吉吉的便當袋、手繪貓咪的碗盤、我很愛的肉桂捲、貓咪塔羅牌，每個禮物都送到心坎裡，很幸福。

This year, I received birthday wishes from several good friends, as well as gifts from my husband, colleagues, and friends. The gifts included a bento bag featuring Jiji the black cat from Kiki’s Delivery Service, a hand-painted cat bowl, my favorite cinnamon roll, and a cat tarot deck. Each gift touched my heart and made me very happy.

接下來連假也會和先生去台北和宜蘭走走，和所愛的人去哪裡都開心。

Next, my husband and I will be going to Taipei and Yilan for the upcoming holiday, and I’m happy to go anywhere with my loved one.

一份小巧而精美的愛，毋庸置疑的愛，舒心愜意的愛。

This is a small yet exquisite love, an unquestionable love, a comfortable and cozy love.

以上英文皆運用ChatGPT Mar 23 Version翻譯，未經任何人為修飾。.